DAMN SHIT STUPID IDIOT !%#$@^%$#%^@!

Can i just be like them?? Can i have a normal relationship just like them?
I need care.. i need love?? and i need secure...

I still will cry, i still will sad..
I still will care as i also a human being..

No one i can talk to..
No one will know what i am doing now..
and No ONE can help me to cure all my sadness...

I cry.. for what? I ask myself..
What is done is done..

I just need a person who really care me..
I tot that my heart will rest for this few months..
i tot that i won't mind on it anymore..
i tot it had far away from me..
i tot i can do it..

but all was just lie at myself..

Can i just be like them??
Can i just let it go??
Can i be independent and no need to rely on anyone anymore..

what i want u never give
what i wish u can never do it..
what u wan me to do??

dun pretend that u still care me alot..
and u!! dun pretend tat u care me enough...
this is not i want!! and it just make me suffer...

Dun make me step deeper and kick me out from ur world..
if know that there is no end story, pls do leave me soon...
i cant stand on the hurt anymore..
i cant stand on the pain anymore..

friend who i talk to used now close to u...
who should i believe?? NO one???

You!!
U can just left.. u can do anything without informing..
u can do this and do that.. and can i also did the same thing to u??
will u know how hurt i am.. and u r not beside of me...
just like the song...

"u r not here when i need u.. when i need ur love, and where are u?"
u did not discover i am sad and i am down..
u do not know and will never know how much i need from u...
when i need u.. u r not here.. i just can find others..
i just can cry myself in a small corner..
and i just can bring along my PANDA eyes go to work and bear with lot of question from others..
and i just can lie at them, lie at u and lie at myself that actually tat's nothing happen...

Can just stop my memory??
Can just stop my world from moving forward??
Can just lie down and never wake up till the end of my life??
I am suffer and I am sad...
DO U KNOW THAT???

i care of others feeling but no one know bout my feeling~~
i need to go.. i need to go away from u to avoid step it deeper??
or i will never step it deeper as i still haven't let go the past??

cry for nothing!!
and i am stupid..
PLS!! LST~~ be brave and be independent... u can be alone when they are not beside u~
is it??