result out de lo..

Finally result out.. He got a good result and my result was just so so but still in my expectation.. Em.. should be hardworking dfrom now onward. Doing all the tutorial, use all the effort to do the assignment, concentrate while in class, stop sitting infront computer but do nothing. Sounds like not bad. But all just "say say".. Its hard to maintain all the work in whole semester.. i still need to "enjoy" for the last 6 months. Hope it won't be a suffer time for me..

Frust!

Keep sleeping.. keep dreaming.. tear keep droping.. memories keep recalling..I am tired. I hate this kind of me. I am useless. I am nothing. I need care. I need love. I think to free myself from the cage. I think to be a bad girl. I need something to narcotic myself. Frustated....i need help!

Emotion..

I think i should control my temper although i had mentioned hundred and thousand time before. I am damn emotion when facing something, some word and some matter. I don't know what was going on or maybe is due to hormone problem. Need to say sorry to him but actually not totally my fault. Nowadays, I am damn sensitive with something, some person. I try to ignore but sorry is hard to make it. Maybe i am different than what i used to be but now i just like to treat the person on how they treat me. Some people will act different in front others but talk a lot bad thing behind others. They will act like a being protected animal but actually they are the one who hurt others the most. I do not like this kind of style but in the reality this is what human should learn to protect themselves from hurt by others. I am too straight forward with my emotion and this is will be the weakness of me in my life. Friends to me no longer the most important cause there is no different with having a good friend vs no friend. Even a best buddy will also can be the one that betray you at the end. Even a best buddy will also can be the one who hurt you the most. If you ever experience, you will know the hurt. So friend? Maybe i do not need it. Or maybe i just suit to leave alone myself. In my own world. Have my own self happiness. I am an active, talkative person? Since the day i found out what is friend, i am no longer the used anymore. Took the friendship as most important in life are the thing that i regret all this while.

New semester..

Finally, end up our sem break.. busy with our thesis again. Haiz..Monday, its a formal day, need to suffer with the uncomfortable high heel and also formal wear again.Haiz..School was just reopen, not that excited than last time anymore, there is no more expectation from me to this new sem and also friends...

My life was totally changed.. Different than previous. Or maybe this is a time for me to learn although it maybe too early for me cause i still havent enough enjoy my Uni life yet.. But things will never get back. This is no longer an objective in my life, but i am force to do so.. but things still will go on until the end of my life..

Hi, my new semester..

20 May 2008

Em.. Few week didn't drop any comment over here, is it due to lazy or i got no idea what can i write over here although there is alot of thing happen this few week..
I just back from perhentian island last week. Its a nice trip. I spend alot of nice time with my dear darling and this cost us alot too. Hehe.. We become dark indian althoug my sis keep mention we just got a bit dark then before. Wuhaha..
Finally, my tortoise got their new big house lo.. and also have their own toys after 10 months i bought them from shop.. Hehe..

Something i always wondering.. Wonder is it the relationship is hard to maintain?
Is it too often to be together will let them feel bored to each other? Em.. wondering!
Maybe some feel is gone.. maybe is too used to be with each other and hope to try or seek to another different feel..
Anyway, i hope this won't happen to me and so does him.. cause i really hope to spend my another life time with him.

Time to back lo...

finally finished the final.. Release from the stress.. feel good with it. Hehe...still got 1 more hour then i need to say good bye to my dearest darl cos need to back home town lo.. Em.. feel so sad at the moment when need to seperate with him although only 1 week.. hehe...Mr K.. i will miss u so much but i dun think i will keep on msg u when i at home.. hehe.. cos i know u also busy cabal-ing when i was not around since cabal is ur everything.. everyday cabal, every moment cabal.. everything cabal and i also gonna be cabal soon.. swt.. Cabal cabal.. haiz.. even i gonna back soon he still concern with his cabal only.. haiz.. cabal!! got so fun meh? Need to back home soon lo.. Haiz.. damn "bu she de" him.. how to do? Need to suffer for the time without him for 1 week...Bye lo darling.. i will miss u much.. take k urself here..

shit u.. english!

shit! you think ur english damn good ma? Good in english so "ba bai" ma?? Always just know to comment others on their poor english.. You so good in english then no need stay at malaysia.. no need be the chinese since u also not willing the learn it... go to oversea la.. go to be the guai lou... good choice for u!! i hate u!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

War...??!!

Last subject for final ad.. Must jia you.. after this then can back hometown le lo.. hehe.. so happy.. Go to singk with him and going back hometown with sis.. swt.. what a rush schedule.. But as long as i am happy with it..

There is no ending with it.. i know i know.. no ending war between u and me.. IF, just IF u can't stand with the no ending war, please tell me.. I think i will fing out a solution to settle it.. Please don't keep all in mind.. Please>>>>>>>>>>>>>>.......

If there is no war, there will not have the happy ending.. worst is the war never end how the happy ending will come over us.. Too many thing keep in mind and as a result in the long term, quarrel and quarrel... no ending.. no happy ending.. just war.. war over the world in our world..

Idiot was boring

Nothing to do.. sitting in front computer and look like an idiot.

After fianl, buying donuts, eat donuts, having dinner, sitting in living room look here look there, going back home, sitting in front computer, nothing to do, look like idiot, think to go to bed, but can't fall asleep, think to write a blog, but nothing can drop in. Just like an idiot.. ya.. i am an idiot. BORED! damn daMN DAMN BORED!! no one accompany me.. no one watching drama with me, no one talk to me, no one bother me.. stupid after exam moment.. I am boring, an idiot was dropping a blog cause she is boring!.. Still.. even some one beside me but no one accompany me.. BAD FEELING!!

BIG APPLE i love uuuuuuuuuu

Yahoo... finished another subject again..wuhaha.. after next monday then i can free from the final exam.. so happy... but the most excited thing is my darling promise to buy me the BIG APPLE donut..its damn damn damn delicious and nice, u all should try it... hehe... wuhaha.. i love big apple so much.. eventhough during exam.. my mind still think of it.. kaka..

BIG APPLE i love you so much...but still my darling is the 1st in my heart. hehe

Exam..exam

Really really scare of exam time.. tension and stress bout can't score in the final.. what to do?? Even study the whole thing.. the final still might not be score..Why we need to study and take exam.. Hate the time before exam.. but love the time after exam.. Haiz